Here's what I'm feeling...

I don't know who he is. I have a feeling that I may know him already.
I don't know what his name will be. But I feel like I've already said it a few times.
I don't know when it will happen. But I know it won't be in my timing.

So here's what I wanna say.

So...here's what I want to say to a certain someone. yes, I'm a total girl and wrote it out.
This conversation is gonna have to happen tomorrow at the latest, or someone else will say it for me. Which is not ok with me.

So here we go:

'Ok, I just need you to start being intentional with me. Sometimes with how you act, it seems like to me, and to a lot of other people, that you like me. I'm not 100% sure that you even realize what you say half the time, but maybe you should start thinking about it.
The truth of the matter is this: I like you a lot, and I feel like I'm starting to fall for you, which isn't ok, because I'm not sure if you have any intention of catching me.'

You know what?

I'm tired.
Sick and tired.
of what you ask?
Of BLIND guys.
Guys who chase after something, even though there's something wonderful right next to them.
Superficial boys (who choose not to fix their superficial-ness)
Boys who can't seem to look past skin-deep beauty.
Boys, who, as much as they love Jesus, still meet a girl and say 'oh she's cute,' or 'eh, she's about a 5.'
part of this frustration is solidly mine. Part of it is frustration for a friend.

Oh, boys in my life, please grow up. just a little bit.