Tears....

****I will be the first to admit, I'm sentimental, relatively easily moved to tears, and incredibly empathetic. If you ever need anyone to cry with you, I'm the girl to call.****
That being said, I've been in tears for the past 4 days over another little Ellie, who many think will go home to be with her Heavenly Father very very soon. Ellie Shoal Potvin is eight years old and battling against stage 4 relapse rhabdomyosarcoma. Her lungs are covered in tumors, one is starting to block off her airway, and she has a massive tumor on her hip that ruptured a few days ago. Her family is basically waiting for the lord to take her home.
That being said, a little boy named Riley from Blackshear passed away in an accident last Wednesday. He was the same age as my oldest little sister, and they probably saw each other every day. When I worked at a daycare, he was one of the kids I saw every day. His little sister was in one of the rooms I worked in. She's around E's age.
Both of these have shaken me to the core. I've woken up many times in the night, thinking about Riley passing away, how his sister is probably upset and confused. I'm waking up, thinking about the Potvin family, seemingly waiting for the angels to carry Ellie into the arms of Jesus, praying for a miracle. I can't even imagine losing any of my siblings, even though I know, given certain circumstances, it's a possibility. It's not something I want to think about in the least.
Overall, what I'm gleaning from this:
Get closer to Jesus
Believe in miracles
Don't let the little things go unnoticed
Treasure the small things.
Be with your friends as much as you can
Be nice to those that you might not even like
and Love like crazy :-)

I AM missing you!

There's a song...don't ask me who sings it, cause I don't remember.
I think it's John Waite, though, but don't hold me to it...
It's called 'Missin' You'...and it's like 'I ain't missin you at all...since you've been gone away...'

Truth be told, I AM missing...several yous...
*I miss my best friend...even if I do talk to her everyday, more than I talk to my mom. Ex-boyfriend used to joke that if he ever wanted to know where I was, he should just call her, because she would know faster than he would... so 'the boys' are gonna have to share, because I need retail therapy...which is basically me watching her shop, but whatever. Therapy is therapy.
*I miss my best guy friend....because I got to see him on a daily basis last semester, and I think I've seen him once this summer...but for completely unrelated reasons, this might actually be for the best
*I miss Sara...she's working at camp...but the thing that probably triggers that is her BF also misses her...her BF being my unlikely twin, he's passing his sadness onto me...
*I miss MP-because he's such and encourager i can just be in the same room as him and feel better.
*I miss RN-and the sad thing is, we were gonna have lunch the other day and we both forgot...whoops
*I miss Mrs. Terri-because she's my Savannah mama.
*I miss Kathy...because who else am I gonna act all goofy and crazy with @ the BCM?

(that's all for now, i don't want to get depressed....